Think about this... You might not realize it, but its 100% true

1. At least 2 people in this world LOVE you so much they would DIE for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in the same way.

3. The only reason anyone could ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A SMILE from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special&unique.

9. Someone you don't even know exsists, loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look; you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have a chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, if you BELIEVE in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you recieve.
FORGET the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel so much better when they know.

15. If you have a GREAT FRIEND, take the time to let them know that they will feel great. Add this as a comment to ten of ur friends tonight and at midnight your true love will find you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed within 10 relationship problems for the next 10 years.

She stood at the side of the bed looking down at him. He certainly was a beautiful creature, wasn't he.  She stared at him silently, watching the rise and fall of his chest, listening to the breath escape his lips. She thought to herself that he looked pretty uncomfortable in that position he was in.  She bent down, picked his crumpled shirt off the floor and tossed it onto the bed beside him making sure she didn't dirty her white gloves.  She turned her back to him and tiptoed quietly to the mirror.


He opened his eyes and looked at her from the bed. He wished he'd told her how he felt sooner...he would've had more time to hold her.  He watched her as she took her lipstick from her clutch and painted her lips that crimson he loved.  His eyes glanced at the same crimson color that now made a strange pattern on his shirt.  He sent his gaze back to her as he tried to remember, as she was slipping her shoes on, her hand on the door handle.  He coughed.

She felt like she was walking away from the one thing that would make her happy her entire life...and she hated herself for it. He was the closest she would ever get to Jimmy and she would never forgive herself for turning and walking out that door. But she had to know for sure. She had to know that he was really gone.  With her hand on the door handle, she glanced back to the bed.  He coughed. 

They were two people, so perfect together, but so broken when they were apart.  She loved him from the moment they met, but she would never let him know that. She stood outside the door wondering if she should go back in.

She didn't know this, but when the door clicked shut his heart was shattered into a million pieces.  He would never get over her.  It ruined him.

so well...its been like a long time since i wrote in here.
no one knows about this journal except like 1 person...but I still write in here.
I talked to someone I haven't talked to in months tonight. I miss my Robbit, but he got a life now what with getting married to Kevin and they bought a house! I'm so happy for him cause he's finally happy. During our convo his phone died, so i gotta call him back tomorrow, but I'm just so glad I got to talk to him for whatever time I did today. After his phone died I kinda passed out and just woke up like 10 mins ago. I have to go right back to bed though because I have to get up early. I am so overwhelmed by this new system at work, it's really hard to stay sane at the moment, but I guess what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, huh...
I really wish I could escape right now...but I have no where to go, no one to run to, no one to comfort me. I miss that feeling really bad. Maybe...once I get through this bullshit I'll get that feeling like if I can get through this...I can get through anything. This is seriously one of the most stressful times I've ever experienced and I don't see it getting any easier right away.
I'm going back to bed now...goodnight.