So I don't know what is wrong with me...why the guys I've liked since Jesse...which has been since November...don't like me back. Am I too fat? Too ugly? Too nice? Not skanky enough? I don't get it.
I just want someone to find something special in me...and to like me for me without me having to change myself.
I cried for a few hours today because I'm just so fed up with my life and how things are around here and I skipped work today because I'm so freaking fucked up.
I just fucking wish some guy could say to me "hey i like you because you're awesome. you're beautiful, not only on the outside, but on the inside too" like...not in those exact words of course cause guys don't talk like that, that I know of...but in their way of saying it.
I asked someone last night if he'd be my boyfriend for the rest of the night...it waslike 11:50 when I asked him...he said no though. I told him I like him...cause I do. But I guess once again I'm not good enough.
I wish I could house sit for some rich people.
I'm exhausted and today...I wanted to see what would happen if I went in the river. See if anyone would save me...or if anyone would care.
I think I'm falling pretty damn fast and there's no one there to catch me...
It's too late.